#TEXT 13_Y_M_S_Dominik
[Respondent: Dominik, male, ~22, 4th-year psychology student (clinical health), SWPS University. Works in a sports shop. Grew up outside Warsaw, now studies in Warsaw. Girlfriend in Gdańsk.]
[UPDATED v3: multi-framework codes — [B]=Bourdieu [H]=Honneth [M]=Masculinity Theory]

How did you choose high school and why?

#CODE 2. Education as ambivalent promise of mobility\Education as injury, exclusion or disappointment
I chose the school based on various meetings at the schools, based on various rankings; it was probably the best school in the province. Based on experience and various rumors I'd heard, although I changed schools after a year because the school was a typical rat race, like the Batory school in Warsaw. So I changed schools after a year to another school, where I also had a wonderful life. Eventually, I felt revived and could achieve stability, both mentally, emotionally, and physically.
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#CODE 2. Education as ambivalent promise of mobility\Education as injury, exclusion or disappointment
if I had to survive another two years in this high school, or three years at this school, I probably would have given up long ago. So the decision was very well-considered and based on various factors, so I'm extremely happy.
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I chose this university because I heard about the rankings, I heard about the approach, it's a good school.

#CODE 2. Education as ambivalent promise of mobility\Instrumental education: diploma as piece of paper && 2. Education as ambivalent promise of mobility\Educational aspiration and hope for upward mobility
that a diploma from this school means something. I look for that reputation so I don't end up at some school for five or six years with no knowledge, no diploma, nothing.
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Do you have any further educational plans?

#CODE 2. Education as ambivalent promise of mobility\Credential inflation: degree as minimum threshold for adulthood && 3. Capital mismatch and blocked conversion\Economic capital insufficiency and material precarity
I decided that if I could physically, mentally, and financially manage to complete a master's degree in psychology, I'd also pursue a doctorate in psychology, but that now depends on various financial and logistical issues.
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What is your dream job?

#CODE 4. Work, low pay and dignity\[H] Work as sphere of social recognition: esteem, dignity, acknowledgment && 3. Capital mismatch and blocked conversion\Blocked conversion: capitals fail to produce stable position
I want it to be a job where I feel fulfilled and help people, but also be rewarded fairly and commensurate with my efforts. So, if I'm looking at a typical job, if I'm looking at the financial aspect, I'd go into a corporation. If I'm looking at the financial aspect, but also the social aspect, like life, then I'd go into private practice as a psychotherapist, sexologist, and see patients.
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#CODE 2. Education as ambivalent promise of mobility\Failed conversion: education does not yield work, autonomy or confidence && 3. Capital mismatch and blocked conversion\Symbolic capital deferred or withheld
I chose a path that gives me options, because I like having many options and simply making decisions, not being forced into any kind of pressure.
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Why abroad and why Spain?

#CODE 7. Small place, restricted horizons and mobility\Emigration as resolution of field mismatch && 3. Capital mismatch and blocked conversion\Blocked conversion: capitals fail to produce stable position
A better financial outlook, a better appreciation of my profession, an appreciation of my girlfriend's profession as a future doctor, a warm country, great weather, great food, a different mentality; it's more Western European in terms of outlook, politics, and religion; this country functions completely differently. I don't like conservative nations, peoples, and mentalities. Poland represents a very backward, yet still Eastern, very conservative mentality.
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Would you like to have children?

#CODE 8. Future as anticipated social judgment\Children conditioned on economic security: future family as unaffordable && 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\[M] Masculine adulthood expectations: provider, self-sufficient, responsible
Not in the next… I say 10 years... I'll start with one child. If I can actually support my family, myself and the child, at a level I consider decent, I'll end with one child. If I can support two children at the level I want to provide for my family, then two. But that's still a rather distant prospect for me and unacceptable at the moment.
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#CODE 3. Capital mismatch and blocked conversion\Economic capital insufficiency and material precarity && 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\Blocked adulthood: conditions for independence structurally unavailable
I don't have to think about how to survive from paycheck to paycheck, that I can afford something, I can afford something for my family, both a good education for myself and my children, a decent life, a vacation, something like that. Not worrying about whether I'll eat today and not have enough money tomorrow, or whether I'll have enough money to raise and educate a child.
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What do you spend your money on?

#CODE 3. Capital mismatch and blocked conversion\Economic capital insufficiency and material precarity
I would like to spend more on my development and my entertainment, because my entertainment life is not very extensive and intense, so I think I could spend more money on experiencing these moments and not on other things.
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Do you feel like an adult?

#CODE 1. Difference misrecognised as deficiency\Self-attributed incapacity and internalised deficit && 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\Adulthood as permanently deferred, regressed, or never felt
I always felt too grown up for my age, too serious for my age, because I always had to be the grown-up one.
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#CODE 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\Adulthood as permanently deferred, regressed, or never felt
Maybe not a burden, but pressure someday and simply life, now pride, although I know that my seriousness in high school or middle school will backfire on me, that it will personally affect me when I'm 30. I mature a bit later in this entertainment context, I've noticed.
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#CODE 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\Adulthood as permanently deferred, regressed, or never felt
I don't know what it will be, but I will definitely have my moment somewhere where I will have to have more fun than my peers, because my peers had fun earlier and I will have fun later.
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Are you considering marriage? Family?

#CODE 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\[M] Masculine adulthood expectations: provider, self-sufficient, responsible && 8. Future as anticipated social judgment\Structural constraints naturalised as personal limits
I'll be ready, not when the girl... I mean, okay, the girl has to be ready too, but usually women are ready for such things earlier, so I have to be ready, I have to want it, not because my mother tells me it's time, or my grandmother, or my aunts, or who knows who else, or the whole society. I'm ready, I want it, because I don't need that to be in a relationship, I don't need paperwork and a wedding to live with someone.
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Do you rate your current life situation as stable?

#CODE 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\Blocked adulthood: conditions for independence structurally unavailable
No. Half a year ago I would have said 80-90% yes, now absolutely, well maybe not absolutely, just no.
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What do you think are the differences in becoming an adult between your generation and your parents'?

#CODE 2. Education as ambivalent promise of mobility\Credential inflation: degree as minimum threshold for adulthood && 8. Future as anticipated social judgment\Collective structural condition misrecognised as individual failure
I believe that entering adulthood is different from being an adult... I also think it's related to financial dynamics, because unfortunately, it was possible to have a job and some resources earlier than it is now. Today, everyone needs at least a master's degree and many other things to earn a decent amount of money, to even earn money at all.
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#CODE 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\Blocked adulthood: conditions for independence structurally unavailable && 8. Future as anticipated social judgment\Collective structural condition misrecognised as individual failure && 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\[B] Doxa of normative adulthood: housing-work-family sequence naturalised as universal
I see among my peers that there are more weddings, proposals, pregnancies, and so on, but for me, it's too early. But I also think it's related to financial dynamics, because unfortunately, it was possible to have a job and some resources earlier than it is now.
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What is your relationship with your parents like?

#CODE 6. Family care as protection and symbolic burden\Father absence, relational failure, and absent paternal capital transmission
Here, unfortunately, I have to say with regret that there are two different relationships, and while I might have wanted balance and uniformity, there isn't any. But I believe that even at this age... at an earlier age, it wasn't my role to make the relationship look the way it did. I don't blame anyone, I don't burden anyone. I know what causes both relationships, but they're not the same. I used to blame myself for it, I used to try to fight it, but it is what it is.
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#CODE 6. Family care as protection and symbolic burden\Father absence, relational failure, and absent paternal capital transmission
my dad is more secretive, so he doesn't tell me many things, so I won't learn many things, both good and bad.
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How is your relationship with your sister?

#CODE 6. Family care as protection and symbolic burden\[M] Masculine provider obligation: breadwinner expectations and care labour extraction
Sometimes I had to be higher than her to help raise her, do something, go with her, and so on. So sometimes I had to keep an eye on her, so it's not a typical relationship.
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What are you afraid of? About the future?

#CODE 8. Future as anticipated social judgment\Fear of the future and anticipated inadequacy
About ensuring a proper existence for myself, my family, my parents, being happy, being in a proper relationship, simply being happy... There's a fear that this might not work out.
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#CODE 1. Difference misrecognised as deficiency\Institutional labelling as lazy / problematic / weird
Initially, I was convinced that studying the humanities would be a bit worse, maybe something more along the lines of something else.
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#CODE 7. Small place, restricted horizons and mobility\Local horizon as socially naturalised limit
I'm also considering volunteering as a future psychologist at Dream Team, a pro-abortion, pro-health foundation for women. But as for current ones, it's mainly Amnesty International, various European Union issues, and unfortunately, nothing local.
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What are your plans in a five-year perspective?

#CODE 5. Blocked adulthood and symbolic shame\Adulthood defined: financial independence, housing, responsibility
Finishing my studies, settling down, starting another one, maybe moving in with a partner, not having children yet, I think.
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#CODE 6. Family care as protection and symbolic burden\Family as material safety net: housing, food, money && 6. Family care as protection and symbolic burden\Family care as emotional protection and comfort
My parents always supported me and always supported me... My mother was more supportive of the decision.
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